Try again

 I don't even know where to begin. It's been so long since I've been here. But I guess I'll just start typing. Gotta start somewhere.

It's been about 4.5 years since my last post. And despite the countless changes in my life, I don't feel far from where I left off. At this point I'm nearly fully independent. Got the full-time job with the apartment + roommate. And in the past couple years I feel like I've managed to start crawling out of my shell and actually... do things. Travel. Get into hobbies. It's tough. Like, really damn tough. Getting out of bed in the morning is still the hardest thing I do all day. Every day. But I've managed to keep doing it for this long, so I guess I've got that going.

Like I said, I got to travel a bunch. Drove over a mountain in a snowstorm while in a tiny FWD hatchback. Flew to New York just to drive across America to LA. Spent a couple weeks in Japan. For the longest time, just leaving town was an immense mental effort in itself. But those times I managed to get away, I felt a little more free than before. I guess I've been chasing that high for a while now. But hey, we've all gotta work and whatnot. 

Speaking of which, I finally landed a full time gig at a big-shot company. IT work, as you might've expected. It's certainly not lavish pay, but it's enough to make me feel secure. I can rent an apartment and bought 2 cars so far, which is more than most can so. I try to keep a balance of not taking what I have for granted. But not becoming complacent with where I'm at. There's always new opportunities out there. If I can manage to reach for them.

Since I'm here writing for once, I suppose I should talk about that for a moment. While it's more than obvious I lost my writing habit many years ago, I've never quite lost that itch to write and create. I still daydream. More than I care to admit. My writing may be few and rare, I've never stopped dreaming up stories. Songs I want to write. Tales I want to share. I got introduced to Dungeons & Dragons a few years ago. And I think I've fallen for the concept of being able to guide people through a story via interactive stories. It has the capacity to let my production muscles flex as well. Settings up frameworks for dynamic music and SFX has got me captivated. It's a nice blend of creativity, theatrics and tech work.

I think what still surprises me is my two flagship characters have never left my mind. Drake and Katherine are still alive and kicking. In fact, I've got a whole universe of stories revolving around them. An endless tale of two people who are always just barely within sight of one another. But never close enough to reach. I've actually come to play these characters often in D&D sessions, which has let me get a better idea of what these characters are really like. 

My hope is I can weave all these ideas I have into a series I've come to call the Zodiac. It's all but a daydream right now. The ideas and tales have been growing like a garden. Ripe for the picking. I just need to don some gloves and get picking. But for that, I need to actually write. Which is... Why I'm here.

I'll leave off with the same thing I always say. I hope to write again soon. And I'm not just saying that. I really do. But habits seldom come easily to me. Especially good ones. But I'd rather try and fail a hundred times than be left wondering, "What if..." Time will tell.

But sooner or later, I'll write again. I always do... Even if it takes a few years.